The Life of a Grown Boy – A Journey Through Adulthood Without Losing Yourself

Hello, my name is Dimitar J., and I am here to give you some food for thought.

I created this blog, The Life of a Grown Boy, because I believe that, deep down, we never truly grow up. We age, we take on responsibilities, we play the roles that society expects of us, but inside, we are still those same kids—curious, insecure, rebellious, searching for meaning. Life is unpredictable, full of twists and turns, and we often struggle to navigate it. But that shouldn't be a bigger problem than it actually is.

Why The Life of a Grown Boy?

The name of this blog is not accidental. It represents the paradox of growing up: we are expected to become mature, responsible adults, yet life constantly reminds us that we are still vulnerable, still learning, still making mistakes. A "grown boy" is someone who has seen the world, who has gone through hardships, but who still carries the questions, fears, and dreams of his younger self.

Society often forces us to suppress our inner child, to become serious and "grown-up," to conform. But what if growing up doesn't mean losing yourself? What if it means embracing the lessons of the past while staying open to the unknown? That's the journey I want to explore here.

And part of never losing yourself means holding on to your passions—the things that make life richer and more meaningful. A boy, even when grown, should never forget the things that bring him joy and make him feel alive.

What you'll find here

1. Personal stories – Reflections on my own experiences, the struggles I've faced, and the lessons I've learned along the way.
2. Social commentary – Discussions on pressing topics in Bulgarian society, from everyday struggles to deeper societal issues that shape our lives.
3. Interviews and video discussions – Conversations with people from different walks of life, proving that, no matter our differences, we all share similar fears, hopes, and struggles. Through these discussions, I aim to capture the complexity of human experience and challenge the way we see ourselves and each other.
4. Art, Music, and the Esoteric – Life is not just about survival—it is about creation, exploration, and passion. That is why here you will also find reflections on my personal interests:
   • Rapping – A form of self-expression, rhythm, and poetry that allows me to tell stories in a raw, unfiltered way.
   • Tarot & Kabbalah – A deep dive into the mystical, the unknown, and the ways in which we seek meaning beyond the material world.
   • Charity & Cooking for Those in Need – Because life is about giving back, about using what you have to help others. Cooking for the less fortunate is more than just an act of kindness—it is a reminder of the humanity we all share.
   • Digital Art – A way to bring imagination to life, blending technology and creativity into visual expression.
   • Esotericism – The eternal search for hidden knowledge, understanding the mysteries of existence, and seeking answers beyond the obvious.

Who am I?

I'm just a man like all of you—someone who dares to speak. For years, I have wanted to shed light on the things people prefer to ignore: the kids who skip school to smoke weed behind the kindergarten, the ex-drug addicts trying to rebuild their lives, the silent struggles we all carry.

I've been down that road. Even though I've been clean for years, my past still follows me—fears, tensions, nightmares. I have my dream job, I live my life as a responsible adult, but I've realized that simply existing isn't enough. Life has meaning, and if we live it like programmed machines, we waste it.

Today, people are more confused and lost than ever. I'm no different, but I choose to be part of the small group that tries to walk this journey with dignity and faith. My turning point came when I built a family with the woman I love. That's when I understood that it is my duty to warn others—to show what awaits those who let the current carry them aimlessly.

The Balance Between Growth and Passion

A grown boy is someone who learns from his past but does not let it define him. Someone who takes responsibility for his life but does not forget the things that make him happy. Someone who understands the weight of the world but still dares to dream.

This blog is exactly that—a journey through the uncharted territory of adulthood, without forgetting where we came from. Because no matter how much we grow, we must never forget to create, to explore, to give, and to dream.